The truth.

Its sad, how everyone is changing & going our seperate ways. What are the reasons all for this? School! idk. The people who you were so close with are not anymore and people you least expect to be close with you are now. Maybe its for the best. Even people's attitudes are turning ugly. I wish I can confront people to stop giving me bad attitudes and why things are changing between us.

I know I am so mean to you & I'm sorry & not even giving you chance to talk to me or me to talk to you. Its just different I don't know what to say to you. You have the personality my bestfriend likes in a guy, but let her fufill her Operation Graduation. I really wish I can tell you this, but I don't want you to take it as if I'm being mean to you. You guys will be going to seperate school and in that short amount of time you guys were together, she was happy. If she's happy then I'm happy. Yestreday really annoyed me for some reason, my only time I got to hang out with her after school, you had to be there?! I know you are leaving and its your last few days, but I miss her hanging out with O3l. Our O3l talks aren't even the same anymore.

Have you ever had that feeling, when your so annoyed of someone? But then when the annoyance isnt there you end up missing it? Augh. I hate it. We don't even have anything to be treasured or whatever. It's just a crush! I know it is. I even dislike that fact you get to know my friends, its like augh. THEY ARE MINES, NOT YOURS. I don't talk to your niggas, so leave them alone. Its sad that you made the decision to go to the Airforce, but I'm happy in a way. So maybe when you come back, I can give you a chance, your a nice guy and all, a dream guy in a way. I can name so much things I like about you, but just STOP being so clingy. I can not spend every second I have free time with you. We DON'T have anything. I wish I can say that to you to, but again I'm scared I might hurt your feelings.

Augh. I wanna tell those people all that, but then I don't wanna hurt them because the relationsips we have for each other, mean alot to me. Seriously. Believe or not? Especially the second one. I might not show it, but deep inside it does.