Pesters my mind.

So damn irritated. So basically I give you advice for no effing reason. I never was in your position and I don't know how it feels to be you. But I spend time thinking what to say to you and you just throw it out the garbage. You do stuff, after I tell you to stop and not do it in the first place. What does he have in the first place anyways? Blowing up my phone all the time tooooo. Like hello, life isn't all about texting and talking all the time. ugh.

Nick, I really wish you were here with me, enjoying summer. I miss you so much. I love long car rides because you know that's where I think about everything, but now everything's okay, but you not here is so painful. Its hard going to sleep not hearing from you, I got so used to it. I wish you sent me those goodmorning texts that I get. I wish you were the one driving me around. I wish you were the one to explain to my mom why I came home late. I super duper miss you. Yesterday you called your mom and I was happy because I can finally send you letters, but later that night I wish you called me instead, like you said you were. But its okay, she's your mom. Anyways, Pat, Isabel and Roland wanted to go to Twin peaks, but I couldn't because that's our place. I didn't want to be remembered of the first time we went there together, homecoming night or other memories you gave me there. Thank you for everything. Hope you're doing fine in training. 1 week down, 8 more to go.